Super long question so only dedicated people read please?

Well to start off, he may be ignoring you because all you seem to do is complain about how pathetic you are. No offense but no one is going to want to listen to for the rest of your life of how much you hate yourself, So you constantly complaining could be contributing to you guys drifting apart. And also at the same time, he kinda sounds like a user. You're like his 24th boyfriend, why do you think he's had so many? Are you sure isn't just basically "chewing and screwing" if you know what I mean. Take that into consideration also.